Photos

Today, I learned how amazing it is to discover old photos I've taken, especially when I've completely forgotten about it. It helps me relive the moment and feel motivated to keep creating. 

:(

Today I learned that lying in bed for hours in pain is no fun at all :(

BUT, I also learned that getting back to drawing and painting makes you see your own flaws, it's not easy to get back to, but also not impossible. SO MAKE IT HAPPEN AGAIN AND MAKE IT BETTER! chyeahhhhh

Epiphany

My life has been a huge blur of confinement. 

By that, I mean moving to a new place, meeting new faces and learning how to live the new lifestyle. I have subconsciously tried too hard blend in, which results to not blending in at all because what I really had to do was to adapt. Good news? It's not too late to. Days may come and go, but if all of them are spent the same way, time is only wasted and I am running in a never-ending circle going nowhere. It's new, mistakes are made, confusion grows, and it's all okay as long as there is a point of realization and the fixing begins.

As much as I keep thinking I'm different, I'm more than what others know, thinking will only get me halfway there. It's important to follow up and act upon it. If I'm so different, how am I different? What am I doing to be different or deserve the status. If I'm more than others, what measures that? What are they doing or not doing enough to match me? I can only improve and move forward only if I take acknowledgement of what is happening around me rather than blindly building my ego and think I'm doing great because that could only result in me turning into an arrogant little brat who's good for nothing. If I want the world to need me, I need to acknowledge its presence and importance as well. The world does not revolve around me. It is a place to make a huge difference in, not a place to take over. Power can be disgusting once abused, and abusing power is an endless temptation we all keep giving into.